Lessons Learned In The Quest for Freedom

Am I ready for the world? To come out to the thrill of uncertainty? To withstand pain of rejection? To taste the sweetness of success?

For a start, nothing in my 15 years of employment has prepared me for this. A trusted friend, a mentor and a person who gave us hope - all three of them - betrayed us.

1st betrayal: A friend whom I trusted with my life, stabbed me from the back. I confronted her. She said she's not going to do it again. And I trusted her. She lied. She stabbed me again - two more times.

2nd betrayal: A bastard called Lam - a person whom I thought was going to be my mentor, turns out to be nothing but a manipulative, insecure and lying son of a bitch. (Read more about him at MyStupidBoss.com - the article "The Boss That Thinks That He Is God")

3rd betrayal: He liked what he saw. He believed in our dreams. So much so that he is willing to finance it. We showed him our commitment - we resigned with nothing in hand but faith in our dreams. We had lunch. Showed him our proposal. He loved it. We shook hands. Deal sealed. Thats what we thought. We never see him again.

These betrayals hurts me deeply. I cried silent tears behind closed door. I suffered shame and rejection. But I survived. Things that doesn't kill you will make you stronger. I've learnt my lesson.

Am I ready for the world?
Perhaps the answer is embedded in a dialogue between Bond and his boss M, in the James Bond Casino Royale movie:
M : "You don't trust them?"
James Bond : "No."
M : "Then... you are ready."


Posted by Loke